Friday, June 23, 2017

The last week and a half....

There has been so many things that have happened in the past 10-12 days. It all really 'started' at the end of last but 'formerly' within the past two weeks. It all started when I decided to get a new car.

I had been researching a new 2018 Chevy Equinox, After much thoughts, daydreaming, and thinking about it I decided to trade in my 2012 Equinox. I made my way to my local Chevy dealer and started looking around. I fell in love with a new 'sunburst orange' Equinox and I was hooked. My salesmen loved it to and I ended up buying it. Wrong move #1.

The car is so new my salesman had no real clues about it other he lived the color. I bought it knowing that it should be better than my 2012 Equinox. Nope, the salesman nor I knew that Chevy had decided to cut Sirius XM from the basic Equinox. After having in the 2009-2017 Equinox basic models it was now no longer an option on the 2018. Heck, XM was the only thing I listen too. Chevy also deleted the CD play also. What a bummer this was!

I was now stuck - no complaining to the dealership, salesman, Chevy themselves, nothing. Strike number one. I then went to Wal*mart to pickup a few items. I could not find a handicap parking spot anywhere, so I parked across from the handicapped and went inside. When I came out I noticed someone had backed into my new car from a handicap space and left no note, no phone number, nothing. I went back in and talked to Wal*mart about looking at their tapes.

We saw a car back out of a handicap space. make a wide swing out and bump into my car then pull out and left. In Louisiana there is no front plate and there was no handicap hang tag. Therefore, we figured they were parked illeagally anyway, that's no note. With a note they would have been in trouble. Strike two.

I went to my insurance place immediately, filed the paperwork, had photos taken, told where to take it. went to have it appraised, then took it to a second shop, had it appraised again, then came home. It was just a 'little' ding but the cost were $2,800 and $2,300 - for a little ding. But both told me they HAD  to appraise high then pay low if the repair cost much less. Ball one.

Then I found out from the Shelter adjuster that I would have a rental car and I have a $500 deductible. Not bad but I can live with it. I just have to wait on a call back from the repair place I selected. Ball two.

While waiting I also have been researching a zero-turn mower for father's day since my old mower just quit on me. I have compare several, talked to my nephew who has his on lawn service, compared them to our zero-turn out in the country which cost over nine grand. I read reviews, read comments, thought about it for days, looked over warranties, compared notes, over-analyzed, figured out where I would buy it, who would deliver it, when they would deliver it, how much savings I would get, etc., etc., etc. Where could I buy it online, pay for it on line, and I even "chatted" with a salesperson online about it. I looked a all the pros and cons. There were several cons - nothing major, and several pros - nothing major either, Then I waited till the very last minute to purchase it.

I purchased it just before Father's Day and it was delivered on Father's Day from the store just around the corner. It was MUCH less than the nine grand commercial unit we have in the country. Much smaller than the 60" in the country. Much under the commercial, acre-sized machine we have in the country, much less gas tank than our country baby but it should do just fine for our in-town yard here. It's a 42" mower but fine for a half acre here. I went from an EX-Mark to a John Deere. Ball three.

Full count. Now I going to go to the collision place this mourning to see went they can take my car, then come cut the grass and see how the mower works.




Friday, May 19, 2017

Hospital stay...

Hospital stay but NOT for me. My wife's dad went in yesterday (Thursday) for Congestive Heart Failure and they kept him overnight. He is 92 and drove himself, then called us and let us know where he was.

If they let him out today he plans to drive himself back home. That's what he thinks. That's not what my wife plans.

He thinks he can still drive and do all the things he used to do but not so much anymore. But I'm not the one to make those decisions. I did that years ago for my dad. It's time for someone else to make those decisions.

I will just sit back and wait...

They DID NOT let him go home. He had to stay several more days, then just when we thought they were going to keep him for ever more days, he called my wife EARLY Sunday morning about 7:30 to tell her "The Doctor released him, and he was packed and ready to go home."

Toke my wife by surprise. She is on the list as his 'power of attorney' and they did not even call her. Course, he dad only tells her what he wants to. She managed to find out that the heart issues are to serious to handle right now so her dad just said "NO, he will probability die soon anyway". He's 92 so you just don't know. Come to find out the diabetic nurse has not seen him yet, the nurses have not released him yet, we have taken his car home so there is not much he can do but WAIT for my wife to get there.

Ten he calls back to ask if she just wants to pick him up at the "emergency room where they started last Thursday". My just told him "NO", just sit in the room till I get there". But he does not really understand.

She is going to have problem when she does get there but I wish he the best.




Saturday, May 13, 2017

God's Not Dead....

God's Not Dead, He's Surely Alive.

I just finished watching God's Not Dead 2 - AGAIN. And it was just as good as the first time I saw it - maybe better. I was a great story even though I KNEW what was about to happen.

It again lifted my spirits - which have been down. I still want a job and I'm still looking through the paper every day and I know God will point me in a direction but which direction I don't know yet.

My wife has been busy 'teaching' with her youth orchestra classes, busy working from time to time with my son's new job, plus the church choir and our granddaughter's school but I'm just left sitting here. She scampered off this morning to do a local "petting zoo" for the youth orchestra - which I call a "playing zoo" where they show off the instruments to little kids in hopes of getting them interested in orchestra.

I'm left reading through the classifieds looking for any job possibilities. from there I intend to mail my applications. Who knows what God may have in store for me.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Just thinking about - nothing, I guess

I'm just thinking about nothing but need something to do while I'm just sitting here. I really need to head out to the country and try cutting grass, I NEED to cut grass in town but my mower does not work so I stuck waiting on my nephew to come fix it, I need to finish and upload a couple of items to TPT, but I just don't feel like it, I need to check through Ancestry.com and continue my search for my GG-Grandfather but I do that what seems to be EVERYDAY, I need to-, I need to - I need, on and on and on.

What I need to do is DO SOMETHING but I sit here trying to decide what I want or NEED to do while I can. I guess I will leave this blog for the time being and come back when I have made up my mind.

Went out to the country yesterday morning to cut the grass. I got most of it  done but plan on going back tomorrow or next day just to finish. It felt really good just to be out there with ehe birds, cool breeze, and just quietness. I love it but it was a long way out there. I finally left as it got hot.

Today it has been raining A LOT. I'm glad I cut the grass in the country yesterday and my nephew cut our grass in town yesterday because there is no way it could have been done today.

Sunday, April 30, 2017

This OLD guy just wants....

This OLD guy just wants things to go back the way it used to be...or there about. All I want is to go back before my mini-stroke, to life with the use of my cane, to a time when I could just walk around the yard, climb a ladder, do yard work. But, I guess that is not happening.

There are things that I'm happy for NOW but there are more that I'm unhappy for now also. I mean I do still get around - sort of, I still get my typing done on my TPT project - sort of, I still sleep well each night - sort of, my Doctor visits have gone really well - glad of that. But then there are things that have not gone as well as they could/should/would have.

I tend to sit around a lot more than I used too - sort of, I still go to store often - sort of, I still drive - sort of, I still go over to my sister's -sort of, I still go out to the country to mow grass - sort of, I still day dream of the things I want to do - sort of, and I still eat - generally better than I used to.

I still go to church on a regular basis and would even IF my wife did not take me, still eat a lot more veggies than I used to but they are good for you, I eat way to much juke food but NOT that kind, just normal juke food- if their is such a thing as normal. I just want to do my normal - or what USED to be normal stuff.

I do tend to sleep very well at night - generally 8-9 hours each night. Which is good, I guess. I'm still on "school time - up early. go to bed early". I still 'think' about school EVERYDAY which is good and bad. I tend to work on school items even though I do not have a class anymore.

"So I'm just this OLD guy wants things to go back the way it used to be...."


Saturday, April 22, 2017

Another OLD guy

Alright, here goes. I’m old. What that means is that I’ve survived (so far) and a lot of people I’ve known and loved did not. I’ve lost friends, best friends, acquaintances, co-workers, grandparents, mom, relatives, teachers, mentors, students, neighbors, and a host of other folks. I have no children, and I can’t imagine the pain it must be to lose a child. But here’s my two cents.

I wish I could say you get used to people dying. I never did. I don’t want to. It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don’t want it to “not matter”. I don’t want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gouged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. And the scar tissue is stronger than the original flesh ever was. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are only ugly to people who can’t see.

As for grief, you’ll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you’re drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it’s some physical thing. Maybe it’s a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it’s a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive.

In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don’t even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you’ll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what’s going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything…and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life.

Somewhere down the line, and it’s different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O’Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you’ll come out.

Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don’t really want them to. But you learn that you’ll survive them. And other waves will come. And you’ll survive them too. If you’re lucky, you’ll have lots of scars from lots of loves. And lots of shipwrecks.

The following story was written by a user on Reddit. It was written in response to a post.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Wondering if this will go on till I died

I have just been 'wondering; if I will have to live like this for the rest of my life or can I change it. What I'm talking about is my 'mini stroke which I had three years ago. I have prayed every day and several times on Sunday, I have said several Hail Mary's and researched 'mini stroke or TIA' but all I  find is how to prevent one and what it means. That's not good enough for me. Can I rehabilitate it, can I make my life much better?

I seems no one knows but I am at least trying to make my life better. My brain still works so I am still creating activities for social studies classes but I just can't 'field test' them. I still type on the computer even though it is one handed which is not too bad. I can still go out to eat even though it does not take much to fill me up. I can still read - I read the paper online every day, I read magazines each month, I email and read them as often as I get them, and I read blogs almost every day.

I listen to Pandora while I work on my laptop, I can still daydream, take naps more than I used to, I still cut the grass in town and out in the country, I still go to my doctor  every three months for my checkups. I am still checking my BP,BS, & weight every day and filling out an Excel sheet daily.

I still take the dog out every couple of hours, still sit on the swing, still drive myself to Walmart, Walgreen's, Dominos', and a few other nearby places. We still visit Target, Bed, Bath and Beyond from time to time. We still go out to eat almost daily. But I tend to use a crutch more than I used to or want to.

I do got to church weekly, say my prayers, visit to other parishioners, and do most of what I need to. I think all done well the last three years but I just don't know anymore.

Went to the doctor today for my 3-month visit and she bragged on all the things that are going well. She only wishes I could exercise more but knows I am doing the most I can. Everything looked great and she was super happy with what I done. My wife complained that she was gaining weight while I was losing mine but I still think she looks fantastic. I joked with her telling her I would gladly give my weekly shot if it would make her feel better by she said "NO".

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Just looking for my family history

It seems like I have been searching forever for my GGG-Grandfather. There are things I know but there is so much more I don't know. So, therefore have to just keep looking. I know my GGG-Grandmother was born in Desoto country, Mississippi and "may have" gotten married there to an 'English', but I can't be sure. Again it means I just have to search long and hard in and around Desoto county to see if I can find a Robert English. So far no luck even with a POSSIBLE marriage date of the mid/late 1850/60.

I think they should have gotten married in Mississippi but it was during the Civil War so records are scarce  or mostly non-excise. I don't have anything but the fact they had a child in 1865 but by then the dad was out of the picture and mom was remarried by the 1870 census.

All I have is a map of the counties around
DeSoto, Mississippi.

From there I just need to keep looking for any sign of him in earlier census records.

I have found out that Mary Lue moved after her birth to Lafayette, Mississippi so that is another lead but it does not do much, just leads in in another direction. Still I am no closer to Robert than I was.

After days on end of searching I began to drift over to my other love, my TPT site and I worked on a couple of new products for sale. But all the while I was still thinking of my past grandfather. Think of things that might have happened to him. Things like I know he was not killed during the Civil War due to the fact that his son was born that final year of the war. But something happen to him due to the fact that my past grandmother remarried short after in 1668 from the stories I have read.

Odds are he died in Texas on or near the birth of his child but I can't find any records. So that leaves me just looking, reading, searching, and digging. what was going on in north Texas during that time? I don't know but I'm still looking while I'm working on other things - when something news hits me.




Monday, February 13, 2017

What you already know

This may seem anti-climatic but the new federal judge is.....

Well we don't really know yet but the word is out. President Trump picked a good one we think but we just have to wait on the senate, the democrats, the media, etc.

It is funny that I finally fill out my tax return THEN various places start sending me my tax notices. Where were y'all in January BEFORE I needed you?

Now I can go back and edit my tax return and REFILL them again. Bummer!

I really just wanted a salad today but my wife had other ideas plus she got up late and was eating breakfast at lunch. So much for my salad ideas. Then she wanted me to go with her to Walmart - I just said NO. I ended up having a Birdseye rice steamer for lunch.

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Tax Returns

It has been over 25 years since I began filing my Tax returns with H & R Block but this year I just figured out that my wife and I have really nothing to file except our retirement checks. When I figured out that we had on other income except those, no extra, no side jobs, no side income, nothing; I just figured I would do it all online with H&R Block website. It was easy. Had it all done in under an hour and it only cost me $14. Which is way less than the couple of hundreds it cost me each year for the last 25+.

I'm gonna miss Dot, the lady who has done ours for most of that time. That's what I was really paying for I guess. I did it all online, I mailed it online, paid my state taxes online, will have it deposited paid for it online, will not time about it till next year I hope. I am having TWICE as much taken out of my check as my wife is even though her check is over twice as much as  mine. It is because she "doesn't want more taken out of hers" because she will notice it.

I'm the one who 'retired' early so I don't get as much; I'm the one on disability due to my mini stroke but don't really get anything; I'm the one on Medicare but they don't pay much and take out most of it, I'm the one not really working much but she still is even though they don't really pay anything.

I have leaned just to make it on what little I now get. It's enough for a few groceries here and there. I tend to sit on the porch anyway.  Most days but I don't really get bored - not much - I just daydream of what should be, what used to be, what was, dream of
 what could be.

I spend time reading blogs, emails, posts. I sleep more than I used too. I don't dive my car much even though I can, A tank of gas last me a month or more now. I tend to pay for lunch early during each month and my wife pays at the later parts of the month.

Friday, January 27, 2017

23 & Me

I ordered the 23 & Me kit and waited for the results to come in. When it arrived I learn just what I had heard/knew from my on research at Ancestry.com but nothing new. It did now give me any leads, no real hints, nothing. I found out that I was 47% British/Irish or 99.8% Northwestern European. I already knew that!

I at been told the story that my GGGGgrandfather was from somewhere over there while his wife was from Ireland. Tell me something I don't know.

My only problem is that my G-Grandfather's father died before my G-Grandfather was born. I can find no real mention of his name, any real mention of his birthplace, no real mention of his death, nothing. Did he die due to a problem in the Civil War? My G-Grandfather was born in February of 1867 so he was conceived in 1866. So what happened to him. He was born in Texas in 1839 so the story goes but there is no censes records of him anywhere or any place.

There is no marriage records, no birth/death records, no Civil War records, no Texas Independence records, no church records, nothing. Where do I need to search now?


Thursday, January 26, 2017

I'm done !

I'm done with my local paper, local news, national news, Facebook, all of it. Every day they are FILLED with Trump news, anti-Trump news, media wars, lies, anti lies, etc. I have had enough. I just want or need anymore of any of it.

I get tired of the killings, murders, looting, burning, etc, Where is all the 'good news'? Where is all the local feel-good stories? Even now, the sports is filled with basketball. I am waiting on baseball, then softball. then football.

I really have nothing to write about. I guess I can write about my cat and the fact that he misses his buddy that was killed a could of months ago by a car. He still misses her. They were together for over ten years. He generally sleeps with me most nights now.

My BP/ BS/ weight numbers have been really good lately. My BP is right where the doctors wants it, my BS numbers are down where she bragged on them at my last visit and my weight is down to the lowest it has been since before my gastric bypass six years ago. Even my wife has seen a difference. It is down to 121 with is two pounds below my lowest GB weight and going lower each day.

My weight had bounced around 142 after in had settled dropping at 127. now it is below even that, so I am very happy. I just wish I could have a 'tummy-tuck' but I can't afford it.

I just have to find some things to talk about that does revolve around the other stuff. Our local Honor Band is coming up in a couple of weeks. My wife finished the program and we are going to go pick them up later today.

My diet consists of non-fried food with it great. I having more salads, lots of spaghetti, crawfish etouffee, boiled shrimp, veggies, and dry cereal. Even things I used to like now make me quezzy.

I have things like helping my son buy his own business. Helping  my grand-daughter with her 2nd gran homework, visiting with my sister, eating more salads, watching less TV, etc.


Tuesday, January 24, 2017

I have had enough and it is only day four...

I had had enough of news about this new president. It is only day four and I am SICK of the news already. I don't want to watch ABC, CBS, NBC. FOX, THE BLAZE, anything. I have heard and seen enough. Even my local news is filled with this dribble.

I don't want to hear Donald's ramble about things, I don't want to heard any more from Spicer, no more from Conway. I don't want anymore from the Today Show, Meet the Press any of it.

Can they all just go away?

I hate to say it but I miss the local news about the local murders, killing, thiefs etc.

Thursday, January 19, 2017

WHAT IN THE WORLD....

What in the world am I/have I been doing these last several days/weeks/months? I am not sure but  know I have not been here. Oh I know that I have been trolling these pages reading what others have blogged about, reading and answering my emails, reading the online paper, watching a little TV, but not really blogging. I wonder why?

Over the past 3-4 days I have been slaving over my computer/printer. They have not worked together and I had to get them to work so that my wife could print the Honor Band program before she took it to the print shop. I got it to work just about fours hours before time. I had to download the driver for the printer; strip the driver from my computer; re upload the driver; and try to make it all 'talk to each other again.

Before all that I have been getting nauseated from a week shot my doctor ordered but lately I figure out if I take the shot LATE at night just before I go to bed, I can sleep the effects off and I am okay the next day. It has been a smart move.

After weeks of unseasonable weather we finally good some rain last night. Now our back yard looks like lake but the temps are still up. We are suppose to get more rain tomorrow and the next day also. We did get three days of winter two weekends ago with temps down in the 20s but since then we have seen nothing but A/C time with temps up to the mid 70s.

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Doctor's Appt

It has been a long time since I left a doctor's appointment in such a good mood. Yesterday was that day. Doc bragged on everything it seems, from my BP score to my BS readings, to my weight, to my A1C, to my...well you get it. 

Even when I and my wife told her about my nausea, Doc came back with it was probably the Bydureon shot I have to take once a week. It may also be causing my temporary illness and weight loss.

I got another Bydureon shot yesterday and end up slightly sick all day but not bad. I woke up this morning, weighting myself and I was down another pound. I can take that.

We also got my granddaughter yesterday, her last non-school day. She was sick and slept most of the day.

Anyway back to ME, my weight was down to 219, the lowest point since my gastric bypass years ago. My BP was down to 128 over 71 which was so low the doctor cut one of my meds back to just one pill a day, my BS was 110 which is so low she said it was now closer to normal for me.

She did schedule me for a gallbladder ultra scan Thursday just to check why I have been getting nauseated. But that's ok with me.