Sunday, October 20, 2013

Boot this thing!


This boot/brace on my left foot to beginning to “weight” me down in a sense, I want it off and I walk to “walk” like I used to. I want to back like it used to be. I still try to do the things I used to but it takes me MUCH longer than before. Hauling items, weed eating, to cutting board takes so much longer. Going places I used to take so much longer than it used to. Some places I am asked to go get a ‘no way’  I would rather not even go because I am just to slow.

I have not been to a football game, marching festival, visit a historical site, all because I am just to dang slow, can't climb steps, to afraid of failing. I just want to get out of this boot/brace. 

I am going to go to my grand-daughter’s school carnival after church today but I would rather not. I know I will just slow everyone down. I know I won’t enjoy it as much as I used to even though it is with my grand-daughter and my wife.
I just want to get rid of this boot. The nurse at PT fussed at me last visit because I didn't wear it. I had hoped she wouldn't but she did! She did teach me several things I need to do to help. But I am sorry. I don't want to be in this thing forever.

I do know that I am getting better, I am not dragging my foot with each step, I am lifting my foot better when I climb the steps getting up to our front porch. I am even going down the steps frontwards....but very slowly. I just want to get better YESTERDAY! Is that to much to ask? 

Monday, October 7, 2013

SLOWLY getting better


The “bookcase” back in my classroom/workroom/study is slowly beginning to together. I am pre-assembling all of it out in the garage and when I get help I will bring them in the study where I am putting it all together.

I have I been able to SLOWLY empty a couple of file cabinets. I have tossed tons of hard copies that I no longer need. I am SLOWLY moving books, DVDs, video takes, tons of history materials, and lots of stuff I use from time to time. I can begin to toss tons of materials that I have stored for years and years and years.

I have filled our trash cans twice now and will fill them again this week. It may not look like it but I can see the end coming SLOWLY and I can get things ready for a bright future. From the outside it may not look like much but I can see a deference being made.

My PT is going well even though I have now loss both nurses that have worked with me from the start. One graduate and moved back home to north Louisiana and the other was moved to a new department for her next rotation within the hospital. But I can tell that things are getting much BETTER even though it is not fast enough to suit me.

I am walking better – without a cane – except when we go out someplace. I like having it as a “backup” just in case. I have been a few places without it and I walk around the house without it. Right now I am not even sure where it is!

My typing is getting better. I am typing this with 8 fingers – five on my right hand and three on my left. The left still does not work great but it is not hitting the wrong keys at least!

I have cut the grass on my riding lawnmower and weed-eaten most of the yard. I have done all of this without my cane but with my brace/boot. Hey, it is a step in the right direction.

Back to my study and my bookcases. I have painted the wall and gotten everything ready for the final bookcases for this afternoon when I get some help bringing them in –I am not making that mistake again.
I am no longer trying to RUSH things!